bookrebus Chapter 149 Xia Qing and He Became Apathetic
Chapter 149 Xia Qing and He Became Apathetic
Cui Jinsong went to find Jiang Shao according to the address.
Jiang Shao was very surprised when he saw him and didn't understand why Cui Jinsong came.
The two found a restaurant to eat and chat while eating.
Cui Jinsong explained the reason and Jiang Shao was silent for a long time.
"Brother, my family just wants me to go back and find a girlfriend and start a family." He laughed at himself. How could he have a girlfriend? What kind of family would he start?
Cui Jinsong couldn't bear to see him like this.
"Uncle and the others feel bad that you've been alone all this time, and they think having someone by your side would make you happier and happier. Maybe that girl is really good, so they want to introduce her to you, so that you can let go of the past and start a new life. After all..."
Cui Jinsong was interrupted by Jiang Shao before he could finish his words.
"Brother, I can't let go! Maybe I won't be able to let go in this life. No matter how good others are, they are not her. I love her but I feel guilty towards her. If I were a man, how could I possibly carry my love and guilt for her in my heart and live happily with someone else?"
Cui Jinsong couldn't judge right or wrong, he just asked him: "Are you going to keep going like this? The girl you can't let go of may have already let go of you~"
Although it may sound a bit cruel, it is the most likely fact.
No matter how unforgettable a relationship is, it cannot withstand the erosion of time, not to mention that when two people break up, it seems that the breakup is not peaceful.
He actually didn't quite agree with it. He felt that Jiang Shao was not decisive enough.
Maybe he is rather cold-blooded. He thinks that some things should be left undone, or if done, one should not torture himself mentally.
People are selfish. He feels that what he did was not right and hurt others, but what's the point of feeling guilty about it since he has already done it.
If you want to accomplish something, you always have to bear some psychological pressure, both from outside and from within.
He thought, "Maybe Jiang Shao thinks self-punishment will make him feel better?" But what good would that do? The girl who was hurt didn't know you were still feeling guilty.
Maybe the person has always hated you, or maybe he or she no longer hates you and chooses to forget you.
It's useless to keep wasting your time and energy on yourself.
Although he disagreed, his brother still tried to persuade her: "Xiao Shao, if you really can't let go and have been tormenting yourself with guilt, then you might as well do something to make it up to her, or confess to her in person."
Jiang Shao lowered his head and poured a full glass of wine for Cui Jinsong and himself. He raised his glass to gesture, drank the first glass, and then slowly spoke.
"Brother, she blocked all my contact information. I contacted our mutual friends and wanted to meet her. Not only did she not want to see me, she also asked someone to tell me that we didn't want to see each other in the future and not to disturb her." He said with a self-deprecating smile, which was much more embarrassing than crying.
It is indeed best not to meet. Cui Jinsong also feels that if he were that girl, she would not want to see him either.
Why bother to keep pestering her? It seems to be meaningless except for causing her more trouble. Of course, unless the girl hasn't let you go or has forgiven you.
But it doesn't look like an exception.
If that's the case, then you can just forget about each other, you live your life, she lives hers, and it's best if you don't bother each other.
Cui Jinsong looked at Jiang Shao. It seemed like every time he was with Jiang Shao these past few years, he was either drinking or drinking. In the past, the sunny and cheerful Jiang Shao was always happy to see him, telling him how wonderful his girlfriend was. He always asked him what gift he would buy for her. He even joked that since he didn't have a girlfriend, he probably wouldn't know what gift to get her.
At that time, happiness was visible in the eyes.
Now, I feel depressed because of my lack of success and the loss of my loved ones.
Cui Jinsong felt that he could not persuade him. Now that he had a girlfriend, he could empathize with some things.
Thinking about it, he took out his phone and checked the messages. He wanted to send a message to Xia Qing, wondering if she was still angry.
Maybe he felt a little emotional because of what happened to Jiang Shao.
He opened the dialog box: "Qing! I'm sorry. I really love you!" There were some things he did not do well, and even if he did not explain, he should let the other person know his love for her.
Jiang Shao looked at Cui Jinsong who was staring at his phone with his head down, and asked, "Brother, do you have a girlfriend?" His brother just looked like a man who always checks on his girlfriend's news.
"Yeah~ Got it~" I don't know what Xia Qing is doing? Has she seen his message? I'd better call him later.
Jiang Shao was very envious because his brother also had a lover.
He said, "Brother, if you have something to do after dinner, go back. I'm fine here, don't worry. I just don't want to go back, and I don't want to go on a blind date. What else can I do?"
Cui Jinsong saw that he was indeed fine and didn't seem to have any problems, so he planned to leave after dinner.
Before leaving, he patted Jiang Shao and said, "A man should be courageous and not lose heart. Are you going back for the New Year holiday?"
Jiang Shao smiled and said, "I'm not going back. Two days is too short.
"Ah."
Cui Jinsong found a designated driver, but he couldn't drive after drinking.
After returning to his residence, he stood at the door without opening it. He continued walking up to Xia Qing's house.
Knock on the door.
Miaomiao was not at home. Xia Qing opened the door and was speechless for a moment when she saw Cui Jinsong. She saw Cui Jinsong's message, but she did not reply.
Cui Jinsong said, "Xia Qing, shall we talk?"
Xia Qing thought about it for a moment, turned around, put on her clothes, and the two went out.
Two people were walking in the community.
"I'm sorry for making you angry today." Cui Jinsong broke the silence first.
"Well, it's okay. I was a little angry at first, but I got over it later. I also think some of my previous thoughts were a bit inappropriate now."
Cui Jinsong seemed to understand what she said, but at the same time, he didn't. He felt like she had something else in mind, but he didn't know what it was.
But he thought that if she said she was not angry, she must really not be angry, right?
"Are you really not angry anymore?" He wanted to look into her eyes to confirm whether what he said was true.
"Hmm~" Xia Qing turned her head and looked away inadvertently.
Cui Jinsong reached out to hold her hand, and she thought about it and didn't refuse.
Cui Jinsong was a little happy. After walking for a while, the two of them headed back. Xia Qing said it was a bit cold outside and she wanted to go back.
The two went upstairs to Cui Jinsong's house. Xia Qing let go of his hand, said goodbye to him with a smile, and then went upstairs.
Cui Jinsong held the key and stood there for a long time without opening the door.
In the past, whenever Xia Qing came back from outside with him, she would follow him in and stay with him for a while before leaving.
And there will be a kiss on the cheek when parting.
Is she still angry? But I didn't see that she was still angry just now.
Or was he overthinking it, and Xia Qing simply forgot?
Later he found out that he was not overthinking it.
It was Xia Qing who was really cold towards him.
Although Cui Jinsong still drives her from the subway station to her home on weekdays, they still have dinner together occasionally and they still message each other every day.
However, Cui Jinsong knew that things had changed. The things were still the same, but the embedded details had changed everywhere.
Then he clearly realized that Xia Qing had become estranged from him.